Humans have this innate instinct
to be in control. What is wanting to be in control? – Have power over, be in
command, direct etc., I define being in control as ‘Wanting to be God’ :) We want control over the people
we love; we want surety that they will give us support; we want control over
our lives and make sure nothing goes
wrong; and when we are a little too young we also want everything and we want all that right here, right now; we worry
about what people think of us; we worry if we have been everywhere and
accomplished everything and so on :)
The fact is, God has given but a
little control in our hands. The ability to choose - This is all we have. What
happens as the result of our choices is beyond human comprehension leave alone
control.
It is as though, we are put on
earth to just find our place and do our job, make choices every single day and
that is it! The Bible says, through worrying about tomorrow you cannot even
make a single strand of your hair grow. Being in control is the opposite of the
very nature of our existence. We can be leaders, responsible, accountable, pioneers
but never in full control. Full control is God’s work. You and I can
simply follow what is right and keep doing it. Of course, we can dream and
think positive. We can project a bright future in our minds and see it take
place in reality after a while but we can never control how our dreams get fulfilled. That is again, God’s work :)
At times when my thinking is running faster
than light I stop and feel the pulse in my left wrist with the fingers on my
right hand. My pulse goes pretty steady. Evenly spaced, small pulses that show
I am alive, my body is functioning fine and I am healthy. This simple exercise
puts an abrupt end to my controlling attitude. I realize that I cannot control my
OWN heart. I don’t tell my heart to beat at a certain rate, make sure the blood
reaches all the parts of my body and blah blah blah. Boy! Am I glad I am not
responsible for all this intricate stuff! If I was handed the job of controlling
my heart I would have done a pretty shoddy work and killed myself by now :) I
actually rejoice that a God who is FAR more intelligent and perfect than me is
running the show from behind the scenes.
Although we don’t have full power,
the power of personal choice is real and available to us. We are actually
capable of making counter-conscience wrong choices and land up in hell. This is
why being connected to your heart is important. Being aware of what is right
and wrong, and choosing right is important. Constantly analyzing and correcting the path that you've chosen is important.
If there are things in your life
that aren't working the way you’d like them to, please don’t go crazy trying to
fix them. If there are things to be changed in you, then change them. Do your
best. Beyond that, let go and let it be. In the light of a calm heart, which
is conscience driven, you will find the solution kept for your problem by God.
Wait until then. God bless.
